“You must give birth to your images. They are the future waiting to be born. Fear not the strangeness you feel. The future must enter you long before it happens. Just wait for the birth, for the hour of the new clarity.”Maria Rilke Rainer
Even though I can’t go back in time, and it’s likely I actually wouldn’t change a single thing about my journey, here’s what I wish I had known and what I hope helps you as you travel your own journey through transformational change…
If I could go back in time, I’d put a plus sign by my discontent. I’d hope to recognize that it simply signals my own growth potential instead of something being “wrong” with me or needing to be different in the other.
If I could go back in time, I’d realize that this is where and how I learn true love, not loving others but myself, my deepest and truest self. Turning my attention inward wasn’t selfish; it was the only way to deepen my connection with others.
If I could go back in time, I’d shift my attention and focus away from what could go wrong and what I feared losing or messing up. Instead, I’d learn to sit and tune into my own resonance to learn to distinguish the granularity of my own being, develop my personal presence, and know deep in my bones how much more important the things are that I don’t see with my physical eyes but can only sense with my whole heart.
If I could go back in time, I’d notice what brings me joy because moving towards my true north & knowing I had a personal compass of bliss was my first step on the journey from my head to my heart.
If I could go back in time, I’d recognize that my authentic expression must be nurtured and is only expressed in the field of love. Planting seeds in good soil is where I would begin again.
And finally, if I could turn back time and do it all over again, I’d gather with others from the beginning rather than suffer in silence for years. There is such a profound mystery in the emergence, and Within (U)niversity has been a portal for me to witness this kind of pure magic season after season for the last seven years.
This last Tuesday was our last community write for the season. I have to say, I was surprised at how powerful the writing practice was for me and shared by others. It was a new level of learning to listen deeply to my inner self with others or said differently, learning to be alone with others.
I hope the signs of Spring (if you’re in my hemisphere of the world) enliven you, lift your spirits and bring you joy.
With so much love,
P.S. I’ll be back soon to announce our summer learning journey.
P.P.S If you’d like to connect before I announce the summer journey for Within (U)niversity or if you’re curious about what you need to do, maybe feeling overwhelmed with all the options, or interested in learning more details about how we can work together, so you know what your committing to schedule a conversation with me here: https://viviancarrasco.as.me/