Today is October the 14th, and I’m drafting this love letter to you in my backyard while I listen to the choir of cicada. I wrote to you in July about a daily ritual that has emerged for me—watching the moon shed her shadow. My intention in watching the moon every night was to release my own need for certainty—my own need to reach for knowing. This nightly ritual throughout the last few months has been really helpful for me.
Because it’s been so helpful, I decided to teach about it in public, using one-minute insight videos. It started on October 8th, and it’s running through the 24th of this month. Within (U)niversity, members can join us by clicking this handy link here. You can start a conversation about these videos there. If you’re not in the community, you’re welcome to watch them on IGTv or YouTube.
That leads me to our next topic, which is our quarterly adventure. We have four adventures a year together—four explorations or journeys into the unknown, into the transformation, the transition, or the liminal space of our own depths.
I don’t know yet what we’re doing for Q4, but I do know that the rhythm of this moon cycle in October is leading me to knowing. I’ll come back to you soon and share the details of that adventure. One of the things I’ve accepted about myself is that I flow with my intuitions, and often those intuitions do not coincide with the timing I would prefer.
The Turning Inward Podcast
The next thing I want to share with you are my thoughts about the podcast Turning Inward. At the beginning of this year, I had made a decision to let it go, feeling that after hitting its fourth birthday, it had run its course. I had previously felt it was the method, the medium that I needed to personally move through my own fear. You’ll notice if you listen to the earliest episodes of the podcast, it was just me trying to understand what this inspiration, “Love.Being.Human,” was all about and how I was supposed to share it. It’s like an audio journal of me trying to figure that out. But then I came to realize that I haven’t even begun to grow into my voice or fully grow into what has been given to me to share with you.
I’m happy to let you know that soon you’ll be able to listen to about a year’s worth of back episodes for the podcast. I really encourage you to listen to the October episode that I published today. It’s a conversation I had with Nancy Guerrera, from the Goddess of the Road, about topics that are near and dear to us. Nancy and I were able to drop into a deep conversation with each other, and if you’re just getting back to it, I’m excited for you to hear this episode. Search for Vivian Carrasco Turning Inward wherever you access podcasts.
The Book .
My next update is on the writing-of-the-book. “How’s it coming?” is a question I hear more often now. I want to say: “It’s not coming. It’s not going anywhere, and I don’t have writer’s block. It needs to geI.” Right now I’m not in direct writing. It’s more indirect, open. There’s an intention to yield to what the book wants to say because I recognize that there’s an internal struggle going on—a troubling of the water inside me, between my will and the will of the book—so even though I’m not writing, I’m learning to hear its voice and just let it come through me.
I happen to be studying the Interior Castle by Saint Teresa of Avila. In the course, Mirabai Starr tells us a story sourced from the recordings of the canonization of Saint Teresa of Avila where she was told by her superior to write the book to describe her teaching. She didn’t want to write the book. She was a little stubborn like me, and she did something pretty cool. She said to God, “You want this book written, then you’re going to have to write it.” And so the story from her canonization is that she wrote the entire book in three months while she gazed upwards towards the heavens, towards the clouds, towards the sky, and she didn’t even look down at her paper.
I’m not at all saying I’m anything like Saint Teresa of Avila, but I do love that story, and it just reaffirmed for me that it is a yielding.
Whether this book takes me 20, 30, 40, or 50 decades—whatever it takes—the book will come. But right now, it’s not coming in physical form.
That’s the latest from me. I’ll be back in your inbox soon with more on our 4th-quarter journey, once I hear what it’s supposed to be.
I’d love to invite you to start a conversation with me, however you prefer to do that.
Of course you can also send me an email and start a conversation that way.
All my love to you, all different kinds of ways. I can’t wait to hear your feedback on anything that I’ve shared and to know what it is that your heart has been drawing you towards or what has been stirring in your waters.
Much love all ways,
To help me write this, I recorded it first. You can listen to this note, here.